Final lap

Sorry it's been awhile guys. 

I've had a hard time thinking of things to write. I know that God still has things he wants to do in these last days here but it almost feels at times like he's done everything and now I'm just waiting to leave. Its a kind of hard place to be. I don't want to waste the time here or just coast spiritually speaking, but it's definitely been more chill and relaxed on my part the last few weeks. 

There has been a lot things going on which I'm not at liberty to talk about publicly. (That sounds pretty cool and top secret huh?) You can email me if you want more info, but I can't promise I'll respond because internet has been a precious rarity the last few weeks. 

I can say that I've really enjoyed getting closer to my housemates lately. It's of course mixed with irritation and the struggle of living in very close quarters with 10 other women. I've learned a lot about community, preferring others and even sharing as elementary as that sounds. But we've grown so close and it's definitely going to be hard saying goodbye to all these amazing women! We always joke that we are an unsocial house because we only hang out with each other and don't make friends outside of our house, but I've actually made some other friends too! Haha.

The question of the hour is what each person will be doing when we go home. My answer is usually that I have no idea. Although I do believe very strongly that God has things he's poured into me that he wants me to prong back and impart at home. I've struggled with how that's going to look and having fear that nothing will happen and I will fail in what he's called me to do, but my housemate gave me an encouraging word the other day that it's all the Holy Spirit, that I can do nothing and just carrying his presence, he will do what he wants to do. I know this, but it's such a necessary, daily reminder. That I can do nothing in my own strength. He will accomplish what he wants to accomplish through me if I am surrendered to him. (Which I'm trying to be!) surrender is one of the most painful, terrifying, and freeing things I've ever experienced.

I have a lot of mixed emotions about going home. I'm so ready and excited to go home. I miss my family more than I can express. And the birth of two amazing babies awaits me! But at the same time it's terrifying because I have no idea what I will be doing or where God will be taking me. Figuratively and literally. But I know he's good, I just pray that my ears are open to hear his voice! 

On a more practical note, we are working on a dance for graduation which I'm excited about! We actually have some amazing technical dancers so that will be fun. We are also teaching some of the young girls here and plan to perform a dance with them too. They are so sweet. I wish I got to know them sooner. 

I'm so grateful for this time I've had here. And I can't wait to get to Cambodia and see what God has for me there. I feel like this whole summer he's been filling me up and pouring into me and I'm hoping that Cambodia will be a time more of pouring out and growing in ministry and gifts of the spirit. I've been praying about possibly choreographing a solo dance to minister their if I have the opportunity, so prayers for that would be good:)

Short and sweet, don't have tons to say or much battery life left, but I guess I owed everyone an update and I had people asking. So there ya go! :)

Be blessed and I covet your prayers as always!! 

Here are some random pictures. Make up your own captions. Enjoy! :P